Hi Everyone,
We had a good day at the hospital. After blood work was finished, we went up to see the oncologist. First, however, we met with the oncologist's medical student, a very sweet and shy young man. He asked about the last few weeks and how things were going. Catherine mentioned a few of the drugs I have tried, what worked, what didn't, and we simultaneously recognized the look on his face. She was talking way over his head. She talked, he smiled. She stopped talking. (Now imagine the sound of crickets.)
Then came the exam. As I sat on the table in my lovely blue hospital gown (now, you have to imagine that with my black toque, my sunglasses and my leather jacket, I fancied myself arriving looking like an assassin - a look utterly ruined by the gown), he commented that the oncologist gave him a measuring tape but he didn't know why. Catherine filled him in. "Um, to measure the tumor." "What?" he replied. "To do what?" I have a mental snapshot of him looking at her in total disbelief and shock, an image I may have for my entire life. It is kind of incredible that with all of the technology, the machines, the complex procedures and the drugs, they still measure some tumors using a sewing tape measure. He tripped all over himself, and left to get the oncologist. Dr. Bedard took a measure and confirmed that Tito was now smaller, and I was doing great. The exam under my arm was still painful, but that could either be from swelling from the cancer or even scar tissue, and they won't know which until surgery. We then tried to help the medical student do an exam. I was highly directive because he was so tentative. Bossy even. Bedard asked if I wanted a job as practice patient for med students. Thank you, no.
My blood counts were still low, but they should be ok by Thursday, so we will go ahead with the chemo. It's an early appointment, starting at 8:30, so with the usual delays, I hope to be in by 10:30, then it's a three-hour procedure. Harry Potter is ready to go.
Love,
Kip
We then tried to help the medical student do an exam.
ReplyDelete...I just needed to see this again. Thanks for the chuckle... (To be fair, I did not know that you could measure the tumour with a tape measure. Do you have to manipulate it and then measure? Isn't it buried in tissue? Obviously I wasn' the only one to miss that lecture...
Sending you strengthening vibes today as you prepare for tomorrow.
love K
Back to daycare again. Here's a quote from Annie Dillard to help get through it.
ReplyDeleteEvery day is a god
each day is a god
and holiness holds forth in time.
I worship each god,
I praise each day splintered down,
splintered down and wrapped in time like a husk,
a husk of many colours spreading at dawn
fast over the mountains split.
I wake in a god.
I wake in arms holding my quilt
holding me as best they can inside my quilt.
Someone is kissing me, already
I wake, I cry "oh"
I rise from my pillow.
Why should I open my eyes?
I open my eyes.
The god lifts from the water,
His head fills the bay.
He is Puget Sound, the Pacific
his breast rises from pastures
his fingers are firs
islands slide wet down his shoulders.
Islands slip blue from his shoulders
and glide over the water
the empty lighted water like a stage
Todays god rises
his long eyes flecked in clouds
He flings his arms, spreading colours
he arches, cupping sky in his belly
he vaults
vaulting and spread, holding all
and spread on me like a skin.
Love and strength, Walter